looking back at histories. matching the dates. piecing up the puzzle. everything just falls in place nicely and perfectly. no room for doubts. realised that i had done something really bad without me knowing. why dint i notice something then? why am i still so stupid and ask those stupid questions, on that very day?? the story flows. it is at least 60% true. because i could not get the most important primary source. i think i need to look back at the histories every now and then, reminding myself what i should do, and what i should not. reminding myself, i need to beware of my actions.