not sure when i finish this post u will still be awake to see or not, but seeing it in the morning or some other days also not very late also.. nvr see also nvm.. hmmm..how shld i start? ok, is like, i think that sometimes u were too engrossed in ur own feelings that u dont sense mine. though i am less emotional than u, but it does not mean that i am emotionless. ya, so i was not really happy abt that, cos i feel that i give u time and attention to hear u out but sometimes when i talk to u, u like ren zai hun bu zai, so i found it quite tiring to talk to u sometimes. den for the conflict, i noe it was the fault of both of us, cos like yi ge ba zhang pai bu xiang. but i really do appreciate that u always make the first move. cos u noe i cant bring myself to do anything abt it de. when i saw that sms, i dunno why but i got the urge to see u, without thinking wat i am going to do next. i just felt that i had to do smth. i also hope that u can appreciate the fact that i went over to ur hse so late at night (a bit paiseh that i disturb ur family, think ur parents will think i ki siao one) to hope to make things better... and abt my previous post, is just that i dunno wat word i shld use to describe, and when i say 'care' i dont mean it that way. maybe i shld have said like 'ppl who has good impression of me, and not really close to me, and ppl whom i feel i need to uphold my image'...really dunno how to describe, and laziness took over me so i just said 'care'. and i wont cry when smth happened btw us cos we were too close le...is like towards very close ppl, i cant really do very mushy stuff..like even say goodnight to u is like...er...cant say it. i also dunno how i behave this way, but ya..that's me lah. u noe that i only treat u this way de. maybe u will feel very unfair, like why i treat ppl not so close better, but this proves that u were closer to me and that u are more special i guess. maybe i will change over time?? maybe... then for ppl who were concerned abt the 2 of us, i thank you for being concerned. things shld be getting better bah...

Thursday, October 21, 2010

sigh...not in a very good mood today. Bball is really a nice way to 發泄情緒。Tire urself up so that u have no more energy to think of other stuff. But the stupid haze....damn it!
I am totally fine with the idea of me making someone angry, cos it doesn't hurt me. 是生氣的人自討苦吃，跟我沒關係。But it is when i make someone who cared for me disappointed in me...that really upsets me. Totally. Is like, i will feel super bad and apologetic and think that i am such worse person. But what is done cannot be undone, no matter how apologetic you are, once u stained a white shirt, no matter how u wash, the stain can still be seen, no matter how faint it is.
算了吧。誰叫我的性格就是這樣？吃軟不吃硬。激將法對我來說只會有反效果。

失望。

# posted by JwwT at 5:09 PM

Saturday, October 16, 2010

2 days of kayaking, 2 days of FOS bball...chao da liao...totally! regretted not putting sunblock sia..so when to buy sunblock today. damn joker. chao da le den buy sunblock...
but FOS was really fun. won 2nd!! yay athena is pro!!! and also knew a lot of other pro ppl also. i need to buck up liao.
Went out with zoe, hazel and wendy for luch today...my pocket really will po dong...but it was fun. super long nvr meet up tgt le.
and YAY!!! detective conan movie 14 finally out!!!!!! whoosh!!! watch finish liao :] waiting for movie 15......

# posted by JwwT at 10:04 PM

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

WHOOSH!!! PROMO'S FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!! LOL, this post a bit de late ah...so is my post promo mood :p Now must faster enjoy...results out then can slowly cry...
Sat and Sun went to help tuition my mum's fren's daughter..she having PSLE science on mon..Wah...幾百年nvr touch P6 science sia...suddenly ask me go tuition. But realise P6 science actually damn easy lah..2 days 4 hours earned $50..not too bad..can finance my outing later on sun and mon.
Went to yiteng's hse after tuition on Sun. Played table tennis, x-box wrestling and swam..i mean played in the pool. Ended the night with a 100-point marathon with lester. Baik ah lester....next time i go bring my own bat and train a bit more...watch out next time!
Went universal studio on Mon. Went in totally dun feel like singapore..except for the weather. Took a lot of photos, spent a lot of $$$, had a lot of fun and tireness.
Kayaked today..today is do all the basic stuff..and sian lah...after lunch go out sea again...felt nausea liao..bet is the lunch lah!!! shall bring my own lunch tmr.
Another day of fun and tireness tmr :]

# posted by JwwT at 6:21 PM

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Tmr is the last paper...shld get excited by now de...but is like feeling super stressed up now........
I dunno why but every time math paper...i will get stress...how???
Scared careless, cannot do..dunno how to do...no time to think..cannot finish....................
Afraid that i will walk out of the exam venue feeling...i just got owned.........
Maybe i shld just go slp now and forget everything...
Just cant feel happy now that it is the last paper tmr...hoping that the paper will nvr come........

# posted by JwwT at 11:39 PM

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Promos starting in 11 hour time and ending in 131 hour time.Time flies. It will be over soon. (I'm am alrd looking forward to post promos days le :p)
Mug all you can. Either you own, or you tio owned.
Jia you ppl!! WE CAN DO IT!!!

I will own GP tmr...

# posted by JwwT at 9:10 PM