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yo 女兒, not sure if you will ever see this, but ya, still going to write wat i think here.
yes, i know wat u are going thru now, but as you know, i can't express like ur grandma, but pls remember that i will always be there for you. You will always have my support.
I cannot comfort you like shao, i cannot cry with you like shao, but you can still talk to me if you want to. You know you got 特權？ like i only allow you to hug me so far?? haha, ur grandma will 吃醋 one ok..
I'm sure you have the capability and ability to lead. Mama will be proud of you :]
# posted by JwwT at
9:59 PM
yes, long time no blog le.
ok, ystd was a demoralising day. Got back math, as expected, dint do well, but also dint expect to do so badly. Den got back econs also. Sama sama as math.
Chiong out GP essay for mrs pow to mark, den in the end, only have "ok, seen' on my paper. then i let shao help me edit, den got damn lots of mistakes.
So the main pt is: I spent so much effort doing my work but they just don't pay off. I forgo my sleep time, time to study math quiz and time to do EoM to do the GP essay but in the end, she dint go thru and give any comments. So wat's the pt of doing it??? Then for the test, i really got go and study one, but...I think some ppl may think that i am an idiot now, putting hard work for nth. Thinking of it make me feel like a baka. What's the point man? 也許我的資質不如他人，也許我的運氣不如他人。我真的覺得自己好傻。
I really wanted to do well in GP and econs. I put in so much determinations to want to read GP notes and econs. For ppl who noe me well shld noe that i nvr touch any english stuff one. But now in JC i really tried my best to read and do. This need super lots of self-control and self-determination for me. But now seeing the results, i am like wth...will they crumble my determination? 這股堅持和自律是我硬強迫養成的，希望不會因為挫折而垮掉。
OK, let's talk abt some happy stuff now. Had art fest on wed!!! I think we did a good job...讓我澄清一下：我并沒有慢半拍，是雨傘卡在我的衣袖裏!!! I was wearing XL ok...so the sleeves damn big. The costumes is like 6 layers, so is super hot and tight but pretty. And i totally agree with yuan xi's comment!! (自夸-ing to 爽一下 :p )
Oh, and played b-ball ystd!!!! yeeppeee :] the last throw was epic. yes i definitely enjoy playing b-ball. Hope to play with squadmates soon. Maybe during june camp bah :]
# posted by JwwT at
10:31 PM
Woke up early on Sat to go sch for pa/av duty for dancenite. In charged of sounds. At first tot quite ok de, but then during the run through felt quite stressed up, but better than ppl doing lights lah, They stress like siao liao. Den left halfway for electone lesson. The whole lesson teacher talk crap with us (i mean chit chat), den the whole hour only did impro. And the teacher praised me!!! Whohohoho :]
Is like we doing bossa nova for impro now, den i totally cannot coordinate the accompaniment when doing impro. So i spent super lot of 精力 and 時間 to practice (despite my busy school life cos of art fest) Athough i still screw up a bit, after i played, teacher say 'good!' so i was like super 爽。Den after that he like ask me if i got play the 'big chords' and the pattern throughout the whole impro den i was like shaking my head, cos got one part i also dunno wat i playing liao. And he said i just anyhow zam the chords and i was like 點頭如倒蒜 (at least it sounds ok)。Then he say i got one part use chord tone, but i totally forgot wat i played liao, cos impro is i anyhow think on the spot one, like i forgot wat i planned to play so i just anyhow run my fingers up and down the keyboard.
Oh, so the main pt is i prefer 愛的教育 than 激將法. i dunno why teachers in JC love to use 激將法 to deal with students. It totally don't work on me pls. you 激 me, i won't give a damn one. I totally 不吃這套！like E****n O*g always use that, den some teacher don't have passion in teaching (at least i dont sense it from them) like T*n **, den some teachers dunno how to teach and dunno wat they teaching like Mdm O*g. My electone teacher only have his O-level cert (not very good one) and he can understand such simple logic and method of teaching, i dont see how come ppl who go NIE train so hard cannot. Waste taxpayers $$...
Ya, so now cos of the new electone teacher with his 愛的教育 and super imba impro skills, i will practice more of it and make sure i pass the grade 5 exam. (he say 9 out of 10 candidates will fail one..)
Slack this weekend again. Die liao. Art fest is coming soon and there are CCA on Mon, Tue and Wed (the actual day). Need to chiong work during sch time le xp
# posted by JwwT at
7:36 PM
oops! Forgot to thank one very important person (or maybe 2)
Thank you mama for enduring the excruciating pain to give birth to me 17 years ago on this day.(though u will nvr see this)
So, i also have to thank my father too!
Thank you for 'producing' me such that i can enjoy whatever celebrations i had today :]
# posted by JwwT at
7:39 PM
Thx ppl for wishing me happy birthday and giving me presents!
1) thx squadmates for celebrating my bdae early in the morning
2) ths shao ting for making the card and squadmates for writing on it
3) thx prisci for choosing the very nice strawberry cheesecake
4) thx prisci (and got geng yu?? paiseh, forgot le) for the shirt though a bit small, but will wear on Sun
5) thx sin ying and sharon for the dolphin soft toy. though i don't really play with soft toy, but i like it a lot cos it is a blue dolphin!!
6) thx 10S6A aka my class for singing me a super slow birthday song
7) thx my class for buying me my present (a mug and a toy bear)
8) thx bel and chee shuan for going out to buy the presents
9) thx lim kiat for the jap bdae song and the humongous water bottle (will use one lah)
10) thx isaac for making the bdae card for me and giving me the jay chou's rubik's cube
11) thx steph and bel for giving me the notebooks
12) thx shao for giving me the 4-part (minus 2) bdae present(with smth super tie qie and useful to me :] )
13) thx zoe for bringing me out and treating me dinner. and also the card! jy for ur 3 tests tmr!!
14) thx ppl who wishes me happy birthday in sch/facebook/msn/sms
Hope i dint miss out anyone...
Ehh, i apologise for looking so sian in sch today. Really paiseh (maybe i really too tired le). But really appreciate the effort that yall put in for my birthday :]
# posted by JwwT at
7:21 PM
i was told that my blog dead liao...lol woman, not like ur blog very alive like that, 還敢講我。
today busy with math cos tmr got math lect test. Doing chem now, and decided to give up on econs today cos seriously no time liao, plus some more the tutorial damn long lah, impossible to finish one.
And lucky GPP postpone to wed for our grp, if not i dun nid slp today liao.
k, i blogged. 滿意了嗎，小姐？
CHIONG!!!
# posted by JwwT at
10:40 PM
Thu:
Econs die liao...the qn very broad, den i only wrote positive externality...完蛋了！
Den math tutorial teacher pissed off. Sigh, i totally 不吃这套 one... 虽然覺得老師挺可憐的，可是她說的話跟我沒關係，所以她在骂的時候我真的还蛮想笑的。况且，我并不覺得她是個好老師。應該說她的交法不好比較正確。嗨...JC的老師個個cmi...只能靠自己。
Fri:
CSM. First thing is to go and ji siao juniors...crap with them a bit. Den CSM is just a waste of time lah. Go there sweat and slack only. After CSM went to support volleyball. Helped to shoot video also. Then the bunch of sensorium ppl very funny. Though very tiring but it was fun crapping with them. And hazel is damn pro man!!! Good job! :] At least i don't see you blur blur de... :p
Went VGC den came home at abt 11pm. Decided not to on my comp and go to slp liao. Den at 11.25pm received an sms and got a shock. Quickly crawl out of bed and on my comp. And the stupid comp took 10 min to on cos i have to restart it 3 times. Den open internet and took abt 5 min to load. Open moodle and internet keep having prob. Finally signed in to moodle at 11.50pm, but cannot find where is the quiz. Found it at 11.54pm and it says closes at 11.55pm. GG liao...But anyway, thx for the reminder.
# posted by JwwT at
10:46 PM
sian, today feel very 對不起 T*n OH...
Slept a while during his phy lect. I hate it lah, but still CMI. As in i dunno why so tired then. I really don't like the idea of sleeping when a teacher is teaching. I really tried very hard to stay awake le... WTH am i doing man?
Den during phy lab (changed to tutorial) i was like 光明正大地睡, for like 10 min..when he was explaining the practical ws..though i have no prob with the ws, i shld still be listening...AHH!!! How can i sleep?? Den tutorial that time he walked over to me and said "you also never do ah? i tot u always on task one??" Sigh..i also dunno wat excuse i can give him..But only lab is changed to tutorial like this morning..at like 5 plus when i received the sms...But this is notan excuse also, cos normally i would have done it earlier..maybe i was really too busy..but if other ppl can do it, i don't see why i can't. Need to reflect upon myself. Need better time management.
Need to chiong chem tutorial and phy tutorial tonight, and i am still here blogging!! Shit! wasting time...AHH!!! TIME MANAGEMENT!!! SELF CONTROL!!!
# posted by JwwT at
9:59 PM
haha, ok, i'm here to brag about myself!
ok, i concluded that i have super strong and powerful immune system.
why do i say so? Cos i recovered within a week. Like without seeing a doctor + no medication + inadequate rest for the past week. Damn pro.
可是，要擁有那么強的免疫能力是要付出代價的。
生病時不要吃藥，要硬硬熬過去。雖然會很辛苦，但還是要撐下去。這就是秘訣。
haha, damn proud of myself. ok at least i shld have smth to be proud of after all the 打擊 i had.
hmm, i do believe there can be pure friendship between males and females. of course a girl and a guy can really be very very good friends, just friends. So ya, 不需要因為別人的閑言閑語而刻意避開對方。至少我會相信你們。 真的。因為領悟了這個道理，我這幾天都沒有說什么。
Shall slack today and chiong chem tmr!!! AHHH!!!!
ppl, jia you for chem lect test on MON!
# posted by JwwT at
7:44 PM
Today's 'I love GP' class is fun, cos it became 'I love GossiPing' class.
Today ahh..just like that lor. A typical friday... and finally get to play guitar! Den ned to chiong to finish learning the classical piece tmr. So guitar and electone touch liao, the next one will be basketball!!! Will try to manage my time better so that i can play :]
Tmr will be better :]
*motivation*
# posted by JwwT at
11:54 PM
在高中的這幾個月，我經理了許多第一次。
第一次可以這么忙，第一次可以這么累。
第一次考試沒做完考卷，第一次考試不及格。
第一次嘗到失敗的滋味，第一次有那么強烈的挫敗感。
臉上的笑容都是表面的硬撐。說‘無所謂’只是堅強的表現。
I am seriously starting to lag behind already. And i think i am really getting stressed up these days.
這兩天都在暴飲暴食。Maybe food can really relieve some stress...
And i busy until i very long never touch my electone, play guitar and basketball le...some more electone need to learn new classical piece. Need to find time!!!
Went AMK after school to replace my ez link card. Alighted at the bus interchange there, then toot suppose to go the mrt there to change card, so walk all the way there. Then reach there liao the person say that it is at the bus interchange there. Wah sian, walked all the way back sia. At least got 5 min walk can! Waste my time. 本小姐時間寶貴!
Finally fixed my card. Dunno spent how much money on transport these few days lah! And all the money is i pay myself one can. My card spoil also nobody noe one. Sigh, but wat's the point of letting them noe? But wth why the card spoil sia? Got ppl hack into transitlink computer ah? Sian.
Need to chiong econs liao. And other work also......
# posted by JwwT at
6:50 PM
累。
累到極點的累。
漂浮不定、難以捉摸。
不要太高估自己，不然會跌得很難看！
# posted by JwwT at
10:20 PM
Suppose to blog this ysdt one, but seriously have no time...
One third of the year has passed already...time definitely do fly sometimes...
Ignoring orientation, only 2.5 months of JC life have passed and i could already feel the stress.
It seems that i have lesser and lesser free time available, and work is just piling up.
I used to be able to take 3 hrs nap, watch 3 hrs of TV and manage to sleep at 11pm during secondary sch. But now, I have no time for nap (maybe sometimes abt 30min), and i don't watch tv anymore, and i still try to sleep at 11pm, but sometimes will just overshoot...
Sigh..i need to plan and manage my time better.
I am already very stressed up by my schoolwork, but my mum, instead of being supportive, added to my stress level. WTH!!!
Came across this when i was compiling my GPP,"More importantly, families are central to the life of children, our hope and future. They offer a stable, nurturing and loving environment for children to grow into healthy, happy, productive and well-adjusted adults." And i was told that, " you have to find motivation in ur life to make you smile." So looking at these 2 statements, it is natural for one to think that support and motivation from family should be the most important one. But i just lack it. 我的精神支柱都是在靠我的意志在支撐著。幸虧我還算堅強，若要等得到家人的支持，我早就崩潰了。Of course i do get motivations from friends around me, but i do hope to get support from my family. 我媽就不能多體諒我一點嗎？
At least things got better during dinner, cos it's suppose to be family dinner and we had 3 tables and my mum wasn't sitting with me. Spent my dinner time talking to by bro (the elder one) and my uncle about very 'intellectual' stuff like future. Education, career and stocks and market....
After we reached home after dinner, i spent abt 1 hr talking to my bro abt my PW proposal and he gave lots of feedback. And i realised that we had quite a lot of loopholes and have stuff to improve on. So shall discuss with grpmates again. Oh and PW meeting was quite productive and fun :]
# posted by JwwT at
7:28 AM
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