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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

This is random, but just found out what exacty do mugging and mugger mean.
A mugger is someone who assault a person in order to rob him or her.
Lol..when did mugging=studying??
Ok , I shld be studying now..got phy and math tmr!!!

Monday, June 28, 2010

1 paper down. 4 more to go.
Econg tmr. I need to find the 'passion' back to study it. Totally lost the motivation liao...DIE!

Friday, June 25, 2010

Went for juniors june camp to help out. Sigh...why did I torture myself like that??? First day of camp. Went to nanyang and saw them doing citylink....沒眼看。Then follwed by triage and blah blah...First day...我忍。Don't even feel like scolding le. Mug till 12.30 then go slp..den next door damn noisy sia.
Then day 2 morning is like wth!!! This parent come and complain to us?!?! WTS lah..can suka suka don't come for 1st day of camp one ah? Trying to argue back in a nice way...wth! Spoil my appetite..Den mug till abt 2pm den go jts. No comments...the food sux..Den went back sch for campfire. Time with squadmates is still enjoyable. Miss the moments, but have to get use to it le..Had nightwalk. Was alone on the 3rd floor very ulu place to 扮鬼。Den is like wth...got a cockroach on me!!!! Sigh...seriously, why i torture myself like that? But then i felt damn 爽 cos the cadets 被嚇倒!Got one even scream so loud that i almost deaf liao..
Then whole camp so many 'casualties' lor.. dunno real or geng one..I go there carry stretcher 2 times liao can? Sian, don't feel like talking abt camp le..scold until now got sore throat. 自討沒趣!
Die liao..need to mug!!! haven't finish studying lah!!!

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

別再懷念過往。人生還是得繼續。無畏的留念只會讓你無法前進。
Forget the past. What is now the most important thing is the present, or even the future.
Time to look forward...and step forward.
Life will get better.
After the downs, ups is just in front waiting for you.

Monday, June 21, 2010

相信這世上沒有一個人是無法取代的。因為永恆根本不存在。
何必再做無畏的掙扎?是時候放手了。
世界 止めて

Sunday, June 20, 2010

我決定不再悔不當初。
我會擺脫那份依賴。大不了就再次冰封而已。
我忍!任何無理我都忍了。別誤了大事。

第一次,覺得自己搞糟了自己的人生。
當初的決定,是錯的嗎?
我從來都不會後悔自己所做得決定,可是這一次卻讓我不得不反省。
失交、迷惘。
我還是無法走出那份依賴。
我這個性,有時讓我喜歡,有時卻讓我厭恨。
泛泛之交? 知己?
也許是我把界線划分得太大了。
試著不讓自己後悔... 有可能嗎?
昨天到外婆家吃晚飯。太過分了吧?整個六月假期都沒到外婆家坐坐。我都覺得內疚。
這一年,一切都不一樣了。以前通常每個星期都會到外婆家吃吃飯、打打牌。現在過了半年,都忘了去過幾次外婆家。
也是過了大半年,我才發現我多數的時間都在房裏,電腦前。以前都是在客廳。吃飯、做功課、看電視,都是在客廳。媽媽每個星期抹地時都會嘮嘮叨叨要我們把客廳收拾好。現在都沒有了。雖然不喜歡媽媽嘮叨的聲音,可是卻發現我生活的方式以大大的改變了...
這改變,我不是很喜歡,但也不想再改變了。

Thursday, June 17, 2010

六月十七日。阿姨的生日。
很慶幸三年前的今天是個星期天。
很慶幸三年前的今天外婆邀我們到她家吃飯。
很慶幸三年前的今天我記起當天是阿姨的生日。

再也沒機會了。

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Watched the news just now and realised that today's rain was one of the worst in 26 years! Woah, not bad sia, got to witness the floods on my way to nanyang. Cos of the rain i decided to take 156 from bishan to NYGH, den along the road can see the drains flooded, those big drains i mean. Then i turned to my left and say ppl at the bus stop sitting funnily, like raising their legs high. Den i see this person standing on the ground, and the water level reached her knees!! Omg...lucky i took the bus earlier, if not the bus can't even move liao.

spent 1hr to NY and 1 hr back home just to go there to spend 42min to teach junior flag bearing..see i so nice.. :p den came home eat lunch watch tv. and channel 8 is showing 倚天屠龍記 again...just ended the new version then now show the 蘇友朋's version...and this version dunno show how many times liao..i rmb watching it late at night during sec 3 or 4...

Den during dinner time dunno how we chat until our studies....mum was saying that i shld give up on other subjects and concentrate on my GP.."it is better to get all Bs then ABCDE/S/U." I think so too...but just hard to put down my pride to score below expectations for subject that i am better in leh...And now i will try to muster all my courage again to try to study for GP after all the 挫折 i had after trying so hard for it. 失敗了一次,就再試第二次。第二次再失敗,就試第三次。第三次再失敗....i will make sure i wont fail so many time!!!! Aiming for at least an E for GP...

老天保佑...

Monday, June 14, 2010

嗨...又失眠了!
2 days liao!!! want to die sia. Who ask me go kei kiang, stay up so late on fri and sat... now disrupt my body clock. Sheesh!!!!
But finally got some life ystd. Went out to study with sin ying at starbucks at citylink. She invited my to go watch her new infatuation..but in the end he dint come to work...mug for 3 hrs...crap for 1.5 hr, den i went for dance. At least 不用在家裏發霉 :]
Oh, and my bro and his GF cooked again last sat afternoon. Since they want to fix the lunch, shldn't they cook the rice also? Still ask me cook rice sia...Then i cook the rice, in the end i 一口都沒有吃到! Imba...don't leave food for me...
Sian lah...want to die now...still damn tired. But just can't sleep properly leh...anybody noes how to treat insomnia? HELP ME!!!

And 蔡昕穎, life will get better k?? :]

Friday, June 11, 2010


I think I have always taken people's existence for granted. 等到失去了才會發覺他們以在你生命中占據了無法取代的位置。
人就是這樣,等到失去了才會後悔。
失去了,讓你懷念與他們的過去。有時想起于他們的回憶是會不經意的傻笑,但有時則是你越想想起,卻發現記憶越來越模糊。

I think there is a mosquito in my room. Super irritating. Slept without aircon last night cos my room only got me (dun want waste electricity). Then woke up cos felt a mosquito biting me. Den realise that my leg alrd got dunno how many bites liao. So i applied insect repellent and went back to sleep. Wth, who is the right mind apply insect repellent at home one? Ppl only apply during camping/outdoor. Siao liao. I need shao!!! My natural insect repellent :]

Thursday, June 10, 2010

hmm...my mum went gentings with her friends last night, so had the whole room to myself!
Imagine a few aunties went gentings to see 費玉清的演唱會。omg!!! damn funny lah. Aunty also 追星one. Don't play play. Aunty also very trendy one. But 費玉清...hehe..a bit the...LOL! As in i noe my mum like his singing..but dint noe is till this extent lah! hahaha!

Ok, so the first day without my mum. The first dinner without my mum: I was studying with shao at LC library today, den at abt 4pm my bro (elder one of course) called and ask me if i wanna eat dinner. That was totally random and 稀奇 ,cos since when he will bother about asking ppl if they wanna eat dinner? Normally is he call to ask if got dinner for him one.
Ok, back to the main point. Ya, he asked if i wanna eat dinner, so i said maybe, den he say cos he will cook, with his GF. Den i was like, "ok, er, you noe where us the rice not etc.." (=worried)
*dunno how the kitchen will turn out*
ya, then ok, dinner gao dim liao.
About 6++:
I opened the house door then the first thing is i smelt something funny. Den i see the electrical cooking thingy on the table a bit chao da, so i ask is it got something chao da? Apparently yes, the rice chao da-ed. But my bro quickly say is not his fault, cos the rice is my younger bro cook one...sigh...so in the end no rice to eat.
Den my bro (the elder one...) immediately want be to try out the dishes they (bro and GF) cooked. He is like that one lor, sometimes can be quite childish. He always very excited to sort off show off somthing he cooked or his GF did. Not bad :] can see that he is quite a nice BF, trying to promote his GF. HAHAHA!!! So tried out this chicken+ginger+egg thingy. The chicken not too bad. It's cooked, got flavour. But i dun really like ginger lah. But some part of that dish a bit too salty..maybe cos there is no rice to 配搭。 I think i prefer the broccoli, cos the 調味剛剛好, not too salty :]

I never really see my bro (elder one) cook...like only once, when he cook instant noodle for his GF..*jealous* no lah, i wont jealous one...i want to eat will cook myself de, cos i cook nicer :p
Den recently=last sunday morning, he 一大清早 came in to my room to ask my mum if there is onion or not. Yes, pig will fly. He wanted to cook salmon with orange juice. He say he saw it online and want to try. The thing turn out ok, maybe if the orange juice is more sour then better, if not i think is a bit like normal salmon. Oh, it turn out ok cos most of the time is my mum cooking it. Haha. But ya, he totally 心血來潮 want to cook. Something wrong with him?? :p But like that also quite nice lah, den i dont need to 煩惱 abt dinner these few days le. Hope he continue to cook :p hehe, i lazy :]

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Finally, i redid my math lect test 2...
AHH!!! Why can't i do the qns that time??? Seriously! Got major mind block that day..
Sian...is like, quite easy thinking about it now.
Why i cannot do??? omg...

Die le. Still not productive..(can see from what i am doing now...still can blog sia) Die liao lah!!!

Round 1:
K.O!!!
X_X

Round 2: Starting soon...

No motivation to mug lah...die..zzzz

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

想念。

也許,
思念是一種病。
那么,
或許,
我病了。

A sudden realisation:
Life is not so simple anymore...
Or it is me being more complicated?
Do not ask me why, I also dunno how to answer.

Paiseh prisci!!! X 100000000000
I know I am late by a day, but still...

Happy Birthday :]

Sweet Seventeen :]

ok..strive to be productive...

Sunday, June 6, 2010

hmm..only 6 more hours to slack. Shall fully make use of this time..to slack :p
Sat electone lesson was fun as usual :] Suddenly the teacher wanted to do impro B, i totally 嚇到! Luckily i did not too badly, and was quite satisfied with my 2nd attempt :] 自夸一下 :p
Went my bro's gf blog and saw this post with a story. Ppl shld go read sia. The story got meaning one. It is posted on 8th May, a chinese story.
Ok, back to slacking...

I will start mugging from tmr onwards. But i need to learn how to wake up early..cos like these few days i woke up at like 11-12...totally crazy..shld slp early liao. And i need to get out of my hse!!! if not got food and comp and bed to 誘惑我..totally cannot study. But don't feel like going library leh...ppl got suggestion not?? Sigh...maybe shall stick to bishan library again, since i always mug there b4 exam one...But need to wake up early to go "snatch" a seat there, sian man. How??

Friday, June 4, 2010

die le..no motivation to start mugging...
Just woke up from my nap and before that was lunch time :p 吃飽就睡,要變成豬了!!!
Sigh..shall just slack off this week and start mugging next week..(hope i won't be saying this next week, if not dont need go for block test liao..)
Ok, happy slacking :]

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

broken down...
這次的崩潰,是打從心裏的...能感覺到心在痛。
不管我多么努力,你都當它是理所當然的嗎?
有時後,我只需要你的關心而已。你就不能試著去多了解我嗎?
其實我只需要你偶爾稱讚我,珍惜我的存在。這要求有很過分?
每次的哭泣,都不會是在你面前的。
I feel so unwanted...
那你當初為何把我生下?

沒有跟你攤牌,是因為我知道不會有所幫助。
你,永遠是對的。
真希望能快點長大。

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

i am
such a failure...
i am a
joke!
Dance night is finally over. Good job steph pang! Screwed up 3 shows. Last show was meant to be perfect, but i screwed it up again. shall not talk abt it anymore. i feel guilty taking the chocs that the dancers gave.
Does not have a pleasant experience. some ppl just keep pissing me off.
But got a new friend. And ystd night was epic!
Sian lah. wth....
Sigh...at least i cleaned up my room le. Can start mugging soon...