i came to know why i was made to think this way. cos i was groomed to be like that.
“你不要跟别人比，自己要有一定的 standard.”
no wonder i was damn disappointed in myself when i got back my chem results.
有其母必有其女。
my mum received my BT results today..ya..i havent told her yet. She asked my to explain to her why my results were like that. "Except for math, WT's grades have deteriorated." That's was my CT's comment. 虽然要我给理由，但根本没有要接受的意思。一切都是借口。那为何还要问我？想看我怎么找借口吧？
对，我也觉得一切都是借口，但也是事实。
My Grades were bad, but compare to the whole cohort?
There's only march hols and maybe a few weeks b4 to study..and not like the topics were only that few? econs was like the whole syllabus. How can you compare my BT results to my EOYs?
The papers are definitely more difficult. Promos paper are meant for you to promote=>easier
J2s topic harder??
I tried to listen to you, study more of econs and touch less of PCM..and yes, this is the result.
And ya, i only told her the first reason..and she rebutted it straight away..no pt continuing.
Yes i am disappointed in myself. you think i'm unaffected by it?
每次都是这样。嘴里说一套，事情发生了有又是另外一回事。考试前叫我不要读到那么辛苦，说我可以的，结果成绩不理想又怪我。
还记得小时候有一次电子琴考试。从考场出来后我知道一定考不好。她安慰我说不要紧，尽力就好。结果成绩出来了。骂我。怪我。我记得那是我第一次在回家的路上自己走掉，离开她的视线。但她也没担心过。
我努力读书时她知道吗？只有成绩出来时她才“知道”。
老哥用了老爸的棺材本到澳洲留学，老妈的棺材本留给老弟。我只好自己努力，拿奖学金，不然还是去哪里打工算了。
Now i dun even feel like telling her my PW result and H3 test 1 result. She cfm just say, PW not impt one, H3.. ur H2 more impt. Make sure ur H2 can make it den care abt H3 lah. Ya..wat's the pt?
If there is only one thing that i can keep, it is not my bed, not my comp, but my electone.
# posted by JwwT at
9:17 PM
YO! I'M BACK AFTER SYF!!! HAHAHA!!!
hmmm syf was a memorable experience. though we only got silver (there's like only 1 sch with GWH and 1 sch gold), but we treasured our time tgt as 1 MCS and how we work towards a common goal tgt :] we all know that we are of gold standards lah :P MCS damn zai one!
Done with syf...need to catch up with work. this block test damn screwed up ><" need to manage my time and work better.
Everything is going well now..rest enuf liao shall chiong!! though got PLAP now...but ya, i will kampatei!! hahahaha!!! need to tidy up my room now :P
~happy~
# posted by JwwT at
7:37 PM
utterly unproductive for the whole week. no heart and brain power to do work. die. how to catch up with work now?
damn cui now liao. both mentally and physically exhausted. lack slp for the past whole week. cca extend to 8pm. now even sat also got cca. seriously...how to find time to
slp do work sia? ><" maybe i shld just heck everything until syf is over? but that is like..need to catch up with work like siao...sighh...still need to gao ding talentime...abt to go out for talentime meeting to settle our performance le..bye~
dont need study today liao~~~~~
# posted by JwwT at
11:52 AM