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Got a feeling that i will fall sick soon... T.T
Feeling very tired these few days..today also...came home and slept. Woke up with a sore throat and blocked nose.
AHH!! I can't fall sick now!!! Got 1 more day of sch, and project meetings after that...
I WILL SURVIVE!
Got back econs lect test 1 result. Not good. The first set back i experienced towards my goal. But nvm, 失败乃是成功之母. I will work harder and improve! :]
# posted by JwwT at
6:50 PM
yoyoyo!!! this is my 100th post!!!
actually today nth to blog abt, got a lot of homework, so need to do work liao. (only post just to say that this is my 100th post...i noe i very lame)
ya, eh, so this is my 100th post, and looking back at the 99 posts that i have, i was told that (from geng yu) that got 1 post damn imba (which i think so too :] )
it's about me scolding this teacher lah. then gy say she admire the way i can scold until so 'elegant' (not really i think)
Then i went back and read, still think i very imba!! hahaha!!!
# posted by JwwT at
6:41 PM
我討厭諸事不順的感覺。
發泄後，心情好多了。
不知為什么最近心情容易動搖。
換作是以前的自己，有什么不開心就往口裏吞、心裏埋。
以前冷酷的自己到哪裏去了？
# posted by JwwT at
5:18 PM
Thu:
We had our chem AA presentations. Haha, all the presentations all very funny one...den got ice cream some more, but i dint get to eat...sigh...and i think our presentation very cool, the video also. first time seeing it. not bad sia isaac! but wai tiem fatty is a bit the lame lor..
Then is like reached home liao, den at 6.38pm my hp rang...i was still wondering who will call my hp at that time, then i saw ms g***e c**a's name appear on my phone. So i picked up and she was like telling me she showed our video to the C2 chem teachers and they wanted to show our video during C2 chem lecture cos they doing electrochem now. So is like super funny lah! A bit awkward but also feel a bit 爽. so discussed with grpmates today and they agreed. HAHAHAHA...
Fri:
Then today is like, start of the day quite nicely, as compared to the pass few days...totally tired like siao! PW 1stperiod and we were like sort of slacking..den later ask mr l*m about our GPP, den he say smth abt us going to this marriage seminar thingy...so funny can, 4 chou gin nas crashing a marriage seminar...joke! Den break today a bit got life, at least i got crap a bit...math tutorial CMI totally!!! Her speed like snail like that can? WTH!!! Phy lect is as usual...TIA BO!!! Shit lah! Phy lect test on mon!!! need to start revising...(take note, is START!!! which means i havent do anything for phy yet! DIE!!!)
CCA today is fun! We learnt silat (sort of malay wushu). The coach very funny, but i was injured by her during the locking session. she totally very 不客氣 one! my hand was like breaking liao...
Hmmm...i think my bro (the elder one of course) is becoming cuter, haha. yesterday he was like came in to my room and said: eh, 聽說你最近很 emo...
me: 聽誰說？
bro: 你的 blog 啦！
me: 你有讀我的 blog meh?
bro: 是我女朋友讀了告訴我你很 emo..
me: 你女朋友不是 jiak gang dang 的 meh?
bro: 是我 jiak gang dang lah..
den he went off. den he came back in later and said he want to treat me to sushi at 日本村..den i was like surprised and ask why, den he say he read my blog liao...then i was like oh shit in my heart..sian..but at least he care abt me lor. i think my relationship with him is getting better and better, cos is like when we were still young, we were like totally 水火不容 that kind. but then now is like getting closer...maybe it is becos he got himself a GF, so 才會學會對我好一點..lol.. not bad ! :]
# posted by JwwT at
11:44 PM
重男輕女。
晚飯時間，我還在房裏做功課，老媽只問弟弟：要吃了沒有？
功課做好後，我走到客廳，然後走進廚房，只聽見老媽說：要吃多少煮多少。
所以我就自己搞定晚餐。
後來哥哥從兵營回來，剛踏進門，老媽就問：要吃晚餐嗎？
哥： 嗯。
媽： 要等一下。
哥： 哦。
然後老媽就到廚房幫哥哥煮粥。
我不說，不代表我沒感受。
我沒埋怨，不代表我不討厭。
老媽總是說： 在我這三個孩子當中，你是最不需要讓我操心的。
這是一番夸獎，但這不是重男輕女的理由。
從小到大都是這樣。也許就是因為這樣，我才會變得比他們獨立堅強。
但這只是表面上罷了。我也是人，是你的孩子，需要你的疼愛。怎么可以這么偏心呢？
我雖然已經習慣了這種待遇，但我還是會嫉妒。
怎么可以那么對我？
# posted by JwwT at
7:52 PM
Let the hatred breed and infest the heart
so as to overcome the love...
# posted by JwwT at
10:19 PM
I pro liao lor, aggravated my wound...
I was tidying up my room and mopping the floor. Wanted to mop under the bed, so instinctly landed myself on my right knee to slide the mop underneath the bed. Wah!!! I was like siao! Oh shit! Immediately remove my knee from the ground...
Wth, almost healing liao, then I go bang it against the floor...den bled and now got pus some more...sian lah! The pus super chou... I think i this week very suai leh...how to zhuan yun? Lucky today is the last day of the week liao...
And my comp, totally die liao. Suppose to get a new one,but also dunno when will get...
suviving on laptop... I HATE LAPTOPS!!! it is suck lah...
Oh, and i also very xin teng now, cos my guitar chipped off a bit, cos when i was taking it out on fri, i dropped it with a loud bang, and the VGC ppl all turned around and looked at me...wah sian...
Suai dao4 bao4!
# posted by JwwT at
3:53 PM
COMP TEAMS, GOOD JOB FOR TODAY!!!
Though i dint really watch yall troughout the whole zonals, but yall did us proud :]
Quiz team must also 加油 ok?? Then we can get triple champ!!
Left early for my music lesson. Should learn to bring umbrella next time...dunno why so suai so also.
Today's lesson quite slack also..lucky dint do impro..but i cannot procrastinate liao leh, if not exam will fail one sia!
oh, and the HC jam thigy need to play Resistance by Muse, but can't find it anywhere leh...siao! 3 more days only, still need to arrangement sia! anybody has the score??? tell me if you have!! i treat you to a drink :]
I dint know that i can leave such a huge impact on you. The email you wrote, i really thank you for letting me know the fact that i can influence you and help you find ur way in life.
我从来不知道我生活还有价值。是你让我知道我的存在是有理由的。所以，我真的要谢谢你。
(using my mum's laptop now, so cannot type 繁体...my comp lah!!! kns, wth)
actually i got nothing much to say leh...but at least you know it now. 长痛不如短痛. it will take some time to get over it, but you will grow stronger from it :]
# posted by JwwT at
11:21 PM
this is super 巧。我们三母女都受伤了。都是脚伤。
prisci broke half of her toe nail during training ystd.
i injured my right knee when i fell when i played bball ystd.
then today morning, we were like telling shao, the next one is you...
and super 准，our 预言 came true!
shao injured herself during PE, when she was running...tripped over the hump and fell...
i think 我们三母女越来越有缘了...lol :]
and today's chem lab session was duper funny! we did our chem AA video filming...
ate lemon >_<" and like act stupid and funny..so lame, but still very fun :] den another group was like making ice-cream, so i added a bit of lemon in the ice-cream and it tasted like yogurt (high fat yogurt according to sheryl, lol)...
tmr got math test again...sian diao!
# posted by JwwT at
5:14 PM
突發奇想。
i need passion to lead, i.e SJ so far. I enjoy leading then because i got the post that i deserved.
i got the post because of the effort i put in for the past 3 yrs, which seniors saw. It was not intended, but somehow it got recognised. So i was really happy for it. I don't like to fight for post/things that i think is not deserved. I need recognition from people, so that i know that i am good. It is a different sense of achievement and satisfaction that i want. That's why i have decided to give up on any leadership posts in JC. I know this is a super bad idea as it can really damage my portfolio...but life is not just about building up portfolio, is it? At least that was what i tot. But realty is cruel. It forces you to change or work against your principles. I need a good portfolio to get a chance to obtain a scholarship, to lessen the burden of my family...but it requires me to oppose my principles...*in dilemma* I don't want to build up my portfolio for the sake of building it up. It is so fake. It is not the true you when people look at ur portfolio..so wat's the point? I want a portfolio that reveals the true me, with my passion. i don't want to be more 虛偽 already...虛偽的面具已經讓我覺得好累好累了。so now i shall just see how things go...
Next. Yes! I am glad that i can sense efforts from ppl whom (not purposely) try to change their impressions that i had on them. I do welcome these changes, as it can make my life better, so why not? Because first impression does matter a lot to me. So i'm just glad...seriously. It is not that bad afterall :]
This part of the post is requested by 某人.
Don't you think that it is screwed to get scammed by doing a stupid crush quiz? find a wall and bang ur head against it....dig a hole and hide in there...this is so damn embarrassing...how are you going to face the person??? trying to salvage and act normal...let's see how things go...
ok, my weekend is screwed up again....not productive at all...only read econs notes, which in the end, i screwed it up. Ep calculated wrongly....sian lah! wat have i been studying??? slack slack slack...want to kill myself liao. must work hard for GP also!!!! need motivation and pushes to work hard on something that you don't have passion for. 加油加油!!!
# posted by JwwT at
5:20 PM
I must have been too tired today's midnight that i got the time wrongly... for the last post, ystd=thu and today=fri..haha this is lame..
oh and before it is too late:
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY CHUA SIN YING!!!!!!!!
Slept till 12 nn today...and realised that i have got muscles aches..sian, must have been because i have been carrying my guitar everywhere with my heavy file and bag...
Slack today liao, need to chiong tmr!!!
# posted by JwwT at
11:02 PM
How rare is this...not asleep yet at 12midnight.
Just came home from CIP at redhill, super tired liao, but still need to wait for hair to dry.
Ystd went to crash jy hse! bought this blue cocktail drink, not too bad :] played uno stacko and cluedo...first time playing cluedo, so cool! and after dinner we were like chit-chatting on some random er-hmm stuff...had ice-cream cake too!!! first time eating ice-cream cake! so to conclude, i had 2 first time experience ystd! not a really bad idea to crash jy house!
Today, we celebrated csy bdae...maybe it's the effect of the choco bdae cake that i was quite high during the first period :] we were like doing this Why not thingy...the i wrote:
Why not?
Why yes?
Why tiem....
and everyone at my table laughed...was is really so funny??? hahaha
Highness disappeared during math tutorial and phy lect...sian diao liao lor.... but at least i learned 1 new math concept today...not toooo bad...
have decided to revise phy kinematics..cos i totally not listening to the lecturer and those new concepts i totally havent digest yet...this weekend cannot slack liao!
Math lecture was still as boring...but haha, my handwriting, or i shld say, this time my work is neater..cos i was actually following the lecture...amazed by myself O.O
Then played basketball (AGAIN!!!) during break..so hiong lah...played it 3 times a week...think the blisters are not going to heal any sooner...and i think i shld put a shirt in my bag everyday liao...cos lester will be like: eh wai tiem *use hand to show shooting of ball* and 诱惑 me! but not too bad lah, at least this is like the only form of exercise i have now! if not will grow fatter and fatter!!!
CT session was lame but funny..talking abt love...like pls! how would i understand wat is love and the crap stuff that the teacher was talking abt??? and somemore, love got theory one...like haha, wth? love need to study one ah???
Den it's CCA time! went to telok blangah CC to learn kueh making...totally look forward to it one..but turned out to be quite sucky. is like there is no hands on, and the person is like keep teaching and cooking, then the foos smell so nice but cannot eat yet...it's TORTURE!!! then the food turned out not very nice also....sian lah!
den rusehed to the ASPN place for CIP...i stink like hell can!!! like sweat plus rain water and sweat again...super uncomfortable...but still 熬 till 10 pm then come home like 11++ liao
ate supper (cos dint eat dinner...was rushing from telok blangah to redhill...), den go bathe...den now blog...so late liao.
tmr still got electone lesson! need to practice..and learn a new classical song..sian diao! oohh!!! but for the KILL BILL, i am almost killing it liao! damn pro lah!! hahaha
kk, stop here liao...still waiting for hair to dry, den go slp liao...zzzzz
# posted by JwwT at
12:11 AM
YAY!!!!!!
I figured out physics!!!!
Damn Pro!!!!
Spent abt 4 hours on 1 tutorial qn...cannot be damn pro liao lor...is like damn stupid! :p
# posted by JwwT at
11:12 PM
Wah sian...got stuck at phy for damn long liao... so shall blog blog a bit, if not will die....
YAY!!! played basketball today! with jiang yin, prisci and gengyu at first. haha, the SMILEY attack!!! And i scored a super tai lo 3 pointer :]
Then prisci and gengyu went for cca, and there came jit woon and his fren...owned them also, haha. Jiang yin! we damn pro!!! hohohohoho!!!
Yes, den later is play with Bel and cs. me and bel 1 team this time...dint really take note of the scores, but i think we won!!! lalalala... played bball for like more than 1 hour, a bit ki xiao!
hmmm..but maybe this is like the last time playing bball with jy liao...
跟 squadmates 打球的氣氛就是不一樣。
或許我應該這么說才對：跟不同人打球，感覺會不一樣。
跟 squadmates，可以很自在，不受約束地盡情打球。可以很瘋狂，很豪放，亂喊亂叫!
hmmm...當時整個球場好像都可以聽到我們的叫聲...a bit paiseh, 還是在 NY 打球比較好。
跟同學玩，因為之前已經玩得有點瘋了，所以還好。
PHY!!!! ah! just can't figure out the right answer....
# posted by JwwT at
9:42 PM
你怎么可以這么殘忍？
當時，我真的很想放聲哭出來。可是我知道，你比我更難過。你沒哭，我也沒資格哭。
決定離開，我相信是你逼不得已的選擇。
我只需要面對一個知己的離別，但你卻得面對更多更多。
你的決定，必定需要很大的勇氣。
我會尊重你的決定。希望你能活得更好。
還有，你的blog, 要 update 多一點，讓我們知道你的近況！這是我要你跟我約定的事，可以嗎？
天下無不散之宴席
人有悲歡離合，月有陰晴圓缺，此事古難全。
我會永遠記得與你的點點滴滴，希望你也一樣！
我會整理好情緒，把我們美好的回憶留在心坎裏，用微笑對你道別。
讓我們珍惜這僅有的一個星期吧！
# posted by JwwT at
8:34 PM
I have confirmed a goal that i wanna work towards to...
And I am happy that I am making an effort to work towards it now...
Ignoring the obstacles, I shall depend on myself and my determinations...
希望這份熱忱不只是三分鐘熱度。
我會繼續加油，總有一天達到目標！
必須對自己更嚴厲苛刻！（有點自虐的感覺...hahahaha!!!)
I am happy!!! :] :] :]
# posted by JwwT at
6:08 PM
Just woke up...
Yesterday/today's ASTRIGUE was quite a failure...all becos of the stupid rain.
烏云密布。連月亮都看不到了，更別說是星星。
So just slack in school..and stayed overnight to like dunno do wat lor..just slacking lah..
The 變態 few of us went around the school and listen to how the J1 councilors scream their hearts of during their night walk...but seriously...they scream until i feel like walking the night walk too!
Only start sleeping at like 3am...then somehow just woke up every hour... and see people chionging PI. 加油吧！
Went walk walk at like 5++ with shao..danced on the road like no one's business :] then went to sleep at 6.15 and woke up at 7 to go home...damn tired liao....
Reach home alrd still hear my mum nag..saying i dint tell her that i sleeping overnight in sch...wth! i told her last week lah...sian..damn tired alrd still listen her nag...but then i just dao-ed her and continue to sleep...that's the power of my dao-ism!
Yay! i found a way to not to be bothered by that thought liao...damn pro! hahahahaha :] unless smth funny happens, i think i can survive till then!
# posted by JwwT at
12:10 PM
yay! Finally finished PI..after 5 hrs + 1hr of word cutting... from like 700+ words to 496 words. Damn pro!
I find it hard to control my thinking and feelings these days...
發現自己越來越不由自主，容易動搖。
不喜歡現在的的自己...
需要對自己更狠一點、絕一點。
我需要很大的決心、信念和堅定。
分析為何自己會這樣。知道原因，但卻想不到要怎么解決。
或許是我不愿意去想、去解決。
但還是一直困擾著我，讓我心煩意亂!
因為不肯定，所以想了很多可能性。
越想，越會胡思亂想。
到底怎么了？
希望一切回到原點...
莫名又刻意，我能夠感覺得到。
# posted by JwwT at
9:09 PM
WHOOSH!!!
Finally i get to play basketball...after like dunno how many months liao.
Although is like playing with some random unknown ppl, but still happy to play :] And is was like damn epic lah. Caught a ball from Lester, turned back wanting to shoot, then realised that the giant guy was right behind me. Super cua tio! But seriously, i enjoyed myself totally :]
Like in the morning i was super dead lor. Diam diam all the way...but dunno why become damn high after school ended! hahahaha!!! still highing now...
Math test was easy..but got careless liao. Anyway, I will never get full marks one can...like in my entire life lah! (except for once...damn tai ko)
Received an sms for tmr CIP and it says: This is not an April's fool joke. CIP tmr is cancelled....
Hahahaha...too bad, jiang yin and prisci, your chances are gone...
Playing guitar now :]
Need to let the iceberg continue to build up...
# posted by JwwT at
4:54 PM
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