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Monday, August 30, 2010

It has been a really long time since i last enjoyed playing my electone. It is still so therapeutic playing the pieces that i liked. I have been plying electone as a routine instead of enjoying it...for the sake of exam, and getting stressed by it..i have not been enjoying myself...i should really spend more time playing it. not for the sake of exam, but for my passion in it. It really helps to relieve stress and release emotions.
It's time to move on.

Friday, August 27, 2010

家家有本難念的經。只是那本經不一樣而已。不同的遭遇,可是後果確實相似的,只會讓人被從中來。 想當好人,結果搞到自己兩頭不著岸,兩邊不是人。為何要這樣這么自己?就因為“孝”這個字`就因為有血緣關係。這負擔太沉重了。可是,這是一個擺脫不了的包袱,只好繼續自殘。
真的會難過。而難過時想找個人傾訴卻不知道能找誰。
有時候真的很想放手,什么都不管,不要再在乎別人的感受了。為了別人而活的確很辛苦。直想在乎自己快不快樂,就想能不能自私那么一次。可是答案很明顯 -不行。因為我狠不下心來。
想哭泣時卻沒有容身之處讓我痛快的哭。
為何總是事與愿違?明明一切都決定好了,卻突然殺出個程咬金,把計划搞糟?不喜歡做決定。好難抉擇,但還是決定犧牲了自己去換取他人的歡心。因為已經承諾過,而他也滿心期待地盼望著。怎么能忍心讓他失望呢?我們三個之中,他最依賴我了。怎么能拋下他呢?
好辛苦。忍住淚水時真的好辛苦。
努力讓自己快樂...是為了減輕別的痛苦。所以快樂時也不知道自己是否真的是打從心裏地快樂。只有難過才是最真實的。因為真的能感覺到心在痛。只有痛,才讓你感覺到感覺。 虛偽的面具真的讓人好累。

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Ok, 1 week no post liao. Let's see wat i have been doing for the past 1 week :p
Mon:
Suppose to stay back in sch and mug de, but ended up playing basketball. Ok lah, got mug a bit lah, did econs tut and chem task..spent super long still dunno how to do..sian diao. Den bball till quite late, arnd 7.30 bah.
Tues:
Eh..normal sch day, just that i forgot to bring my math and phy lect notes..so slacked during the lectures...Had CCA. Performing for teacher's day. Dancing the guys part!! Lucky dun have to do the erhmmm girl's moves :] Although dun have nice costumes to wear, but still it is a rare chance to wear the guys costumes also :]
Wed:
Ao ye-ed last night to complete the chem ws, so super tired on wed liao. After sch immediately went home to slp. Ask shao to remind me to do moodle quiz de...in the end both forgot, so GG :p
Thu:
Phy tut was the 1st period. Den abt to end liao den lester tel T*nOH that we got chem spa so ask him release us earlier. Den i got qn to ask him, so everyone left liao..den after i finish asking he ask me why i not going for chem SPA, den i like *dry laugh* and tell him we got a break LOL. Den he go, "Sharks!" LOL
Chem SPA was ok bah..i taking my own sweet time to do and just finish on the dot! Nice estimation :] Math tut got back out math lect quiz. When Mdm Ong said that i got the highest, i can hear someone shitting LOL. And good job steph pang and sheryl!!!
Oh, and it was lk bdae so after sch cs they all went to get him a present. Haha, a nail clipper. Nice one. And yes, i agree that 19 is a nice number :]
Fri:
Long but slack day. Went hogh sch for lunch and solved a IQ qn on yiteng's iphone!! Proud of myself hehe :P Last part of CT session was funny. DM trying to tell us which shoes are acceptable and which are not. Steph pang, rmb to change hor LOL.
Den CCA at salt. Almost finishing the dance liao. Need to practice more and rmb my steps! Played bball after that and went to grandma hse for dinner!
Sat:
Damn suay. Went for electone lesson but teacher on MC. Cos i changed my phone no. so dint receive the sms...wth...waste my time...more than half of my day gone le...Den went for the Jap festival. Was quite disappointed by it..but oh well..got better as time pass.
Oh oh!! And i got in OCIP liao. Yay. Dun need worry abt whether i shld take electone exam le. And the trip is like...i noe half of the ppl there, so not bad :]
Sun:
Need to chiong out chpt 1,2,3,4 of WR today for cs to do chpt 5. finish 1 and 2 le. Must kuai kuai zuo..if not dun need study econs liao lah...havent start studying sia...die die die!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Dear W*** W** T*** of 10S6A,
According to our records, you have committed the offence of Late Coming on the following dates and will be given 1 demerit point(s) each.
1. 11-Aug-2010
If there are any discrepancies or clarification, please consult your Civics Tutor.
Regards,
Discipline Committee
H** C**** I**********

LOL..this is funny. Havent opened my sch's email for ages and the first thing that i see is this. Nice one sia...sian diao lol. My nice record....IS ALL BECOS OF THE BLOODY JAM AT BUKIT TIMAH ROAD LAH!!!!

Had my OCIP interview ystd. Ehh...think shloud be ok bah...er...dunno leh. The qns they ask is like..keep asking about leadership stuff...Den the female teacher say that i look quiet..so am i a proactive person??? I am like ..how the hell can u tell that i am a quiet girl in an interview when i keep talking LOL?? And wth is proactive sia?? I love GP lol. Den they explain wat is proactive so i anyhow crap ans liao...i think i a bit 大言不慚leh...sheesh :p Then the most epci qn is: What happens if Ms C**a is the one interviewing you today??? I am like...er...how i am going to ans this?? So i just 實話實說 withouthing thinking...come to think of it..my ans a bit de..crappy lah..I think the back part of my interview really shows what a person i am lor...cos is like..impromptu de..so..haha...see how bah. Anyway, also not sure if can get in..first aider 的優勢沒有了, den from 40++ ppl choose 25..a bit need the luck sia. But anyway, got to know my electone exam dates liao..totally crash with OCIP..damn lucky lor! Lucky OCIP results out by 20th, den electone application date closes on 29th..still can see if can get in OCIP first den decide if want to apply for electone exam. If nvr get in den can go for exam bah...If get in OCIP, den exam need to go next time..which is like next year liao lah = need to pay more $$ to cont learning. But even if i go exam now i dun think i can pass lah..totally not prepared..super long nvr practice impro liao..did 1 today and i feel i suck at it le...完蛋. Then today the teacher showed us his impro again...still 一樣 zai lah...then he said smth that really makes me feel 慚愧..."how can I played like this?? it because i practice everyday, and when i dun noe smth, i will ask the teacher. Practice slowly..one note by one note..den slowly compile all ur ideas....."I think i really need to 放足心思 if i really want to pass my exam. Sigh...Ok..OCIP and electone exam..wait until 20th then 慢慢考慮.

Went back NY for food and fun fair. Spent 1 hr walking from sch to NY LOL! Hahaha..cos zkz bai ka liao lol. Go there walk walk eat eat. Den after the funfair helped to clear and carry stuff. Pro lim kiat made a bet with Mr C**a that if he nvr shoot in the 3-pointer, then need to help carry stuff. So as expected..is an..AIR BALL!!! 恭喜發財!! But in the end everyone still helped to carry the stuff cos got a lot. Played bball after that :]

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

LOL! Happy belated birthday to Singapore!!! hahaha. I can't say that i am PROUD to be a singaporean..not to the extent yet..but i can say that i am HAPPY to be a singaporean. 一切就好像是冥冥之中注定好的。出生于新加坡,過著安穩的生活,身旁有許多親朋好友。這是命中注定的吧。就是因為有新加坡,才會有今天的我。
Spent the whole of national day with zoe. Went to her hse to "mug" math, but sort of failed again lol. Den spent lunch time watching random shows on the tv. Watch a show called 第二回合我愛你. watched for abt 1hr but still dunno wat is it talking abt lol. Den set off to the hotel to watch fireworks!!!
The hotel is Marina sands, the 3 tall building at the IR that one. Took mrt to promenade and walked all the way there...a bit crazy lol. Den the hotel is damn cool..but a bit de crowded. The lift is super fast one, but cos of the no. of ppl...it kept stopping and stopping..want to vomit liao lor..
Reached the hotel room..alrd got quite a few of her relatives there liao..a lot of gin nas..very noisy. Her mum intro me to them, saying i was her pri sch classmates..then they quite cua dio. Haha, we are pri sch good frens mah :]
Went to swim also. I rmb i took out my swimming costumes and put in a ziplock bag liao...den reach hotel cannot find..cos i dint put it in my bag ~_~" so i heck liao. Wore zoe's fbt and sport bra to go swim. anyway in the pool..no one can see wat u wearing :p Den the swimming pool is SUPER DUPER COOL!! you noe the 3 tall building..the top got this ship like thingy?? That's the swimming pool sia. 露天泳池。超美的!Den swim with her relative (the gin nas i mean) very funny..especially his bro and another counsin...a bit de..er hmmm...they damn bo liao lol.
Watched the parachute performance at the pool. Den went back hotel to watch the rest. First time i watch the whole of the parade lol. Den the 最讓我期待的煙火果然沒讓我失望 :] 很美!!!




Pics taken by zoe :]

Watching at the hotel is quite diff from last time. Is a diff type of 美. watch from marina square is 壯觀,cos the fireworks is just over ur head..the entire sky is filled with it. The hotel one is you can see the patterns and shapes. I shall go back to marina square next yr and watch!! :]

Den today i was late for sch...woke up a bit later then usual..but shldnt be late one lah..is the stupid traffic and bukit timah...sian..i shld have slept longer and be later and pon the YOG thing...only like at 9 am got impt stuff lor..Only see the torch mah.. But well..still saw it. 至少在我有生之年曾經親眼目睹奧運火炬 LOL

OK! math test tmr!!! need to mug mug mug...

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Yay!!! Ndp performance is over!! Never had i felt so tired before. Maybe i did, but still really super exhausted ystd. 1 week dedicated for rehearsal...need to catch up with work le.
1st time performing in front of so many ppl! Lucky my 閃光 quite high, just pretend cannot see ppl. Whoosh, MCS we rock :] It was a good experience, but maybe we shld be more prepared for the next performance. We can do better!!! Let's jia you for the teacher's day performance :]
Went out with classmate and taekwondo ppl and squadmates (hard to classify lah) after ndp celebration. Think the outing was ok, like at least we can play some lame stuff...Made a wise decision to not play pool and leave early to go home slp. If not really will die....Slept for abt 1 hour and went VGC. The slp was totally not enough lah...den only reached home at 11, den bathe and settle some stuff..slept at 1..totally crazy.. utterly exhausted. got the 被榨干的 feel.
Finally conducted the home hopping session today. 心中的大石總算放下了。I was quite stress organising the session..like cos is working with outside ppl and i'm suppose to be in charged?!?! all thanks to shao....though it was stressful and tiring, it was still a good opportunity for me to work with ppl other than squadmates. At least i got back the feel of leading ppl and organising stuff. Really have to thank my team for supporting me and joining the session. The session was really enjoyable, though now i a bit lose my voice liao.
i shall 養足精神 today and start chionging work tmr!!

Got a new hp no, so tell me if you want it.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Lost my hp last sat...only found out after i posted...sad sia...
I waited for that model for 9 mths and finally got it. Then lost it in 4 mths....and my nice hp no. also gone..Sigh....so ppl, dont call me anymore le. Got stuff to tell me have to email or msn me hor.
Tmr got sch;s ndp performance. I dont want make up!!! Later got pimple breakout sia...sie lah. Need to reach sch super early, so shall slp early tonight!
And shi nai!! Get well soon :]

And yay!! 1 free vitasoy :p hahahahahaha

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Long time no update le!!
First thing: Let me wish Hazel woon a happy 17th birthday ystd!! :] Paiseh, late by 30 min :p
Had our PW FGD ystd. Was really happy when Mr Lim comliment our FGD. At least our effort paid off. But also a bit sad at the same time cos i don't think anyone will appreciate what i have done besides my grpmates and mr lim. I really spent quite a lot of time on those stuff but i think they were just treated like a joke.
And got sabo-ed by cs twice ystd. first was the proposal thingy...suppose to be no time do liao, but den he insisted so....in the end i got sabo-ed to become the 女主角 for one of the proposal. Den during lunch at high sch, our CT came along and they had a convo. Then he told me he recommned me to be the asst CT rep..Den like after lunch i was like walking with our CT..ALONE!!! Wth...i keep turning back waiting for ppl to rescue me lah...den everyone just dao and move slower and slower and slower and slower and slower...until i cannot even see them when i turned back. Good one!!
Just came back from the campfire performance. Quite a nice experience. The campsite was beautiful, like some farm stay in perth. Den at night can see a lot of stars :]
累了。早點睡吧!