not sure when i finish this post u will still be awake to see or not, but seeing it in the morning or some other days also not very late also.. nvr see also nvm.. hmmm..how shld i start? ok, is like, i think that sometimes u were too engrossed in ur own feelings that u dont sense mine. though i am less emotional than u, but it does not mean that i am emotionless. ya, so i was not really happy abt that, cos i feel that i give u time and attention to hear u out but sometimes when i talk to u, u like ren zai hun bu zai, so i found it quite tiring to talk to u sometimes. den for the conflict, i noe it was the fault of both of us, cos like yi ge ba zhang pai bu xiang. but i really do appreciate that u always make the first move. cos u noe i cant bring myself to do anything abt it de. when i saw that sms, i dunno why but i got the urge to see u, without thinking wat i am going to do next. i just felt that i had to do smth. i also hope that u can appreciate the fact that i went over to ur hse so late at night (a bit paiseh that i disturb ur family, think ur parents will think i ki siao one) to hope to make things better... and abt my previous post, is just that i dunno wat word i shld use to describe, and when i say 'care' i dont mean it that way. maybe i shld have said like 'ppl who has good impression of me, and not really close to me, and ppl whom i feel i need to uphold my image'...really dunno how to describe, and laziness took over me so i just said 'care'. and i wont cry when smth happened btw us cos we were too close le...is like towards very close ppl, i cant really do very mushy stuff..like even say goodnight to u is like...er...cant say it. i also dunno how i behave this way, but ya..that's me lah. u noe that i only treat u this way de. maybe u will feel very unfair, like why i treat ppl not so close better, but this proves that u were closer to me and that u are more special i guess. maybe i will change over time?? maybe... then for ppl who were concerned abt the 2 of us, i thank you for being concerned. things shld be getting better bah...