uni life has been super busy for me so far. overwhelming is the word.
still trying to catch up wif work.

i did smth that i had never expect myself to do - campaigning for election. while i did not succeed, i was glad that i mustered my courage to step out of my comfort zone. im damn proud of myself in this respect. for that, i also need to thank all those seniors and hallmates whom encouraged me to go for it.

while i really had fun campaigning, thinking back abt it, i still feel quite sad abt it. i felt that i was a failure. i failed to maintain a good enuf relationship wif ppl such that they would offer me their help voluntary. yes perhaps it was my fault for not approaching them to ask for help, as i tot that ppl may be busy. but even when i post on the social communication platforms to garner some help to prepare for my campaign, none actually responded. i felt super lonely by myself when i was giving out my flyers and sweets to another grp of lect. many occasions like this, though i feel that ive grown much stronger as i was very independent, i would be telling myself why am i like this while the others have to many ppl to support them. and every time this tot surfaces, i feel sad.

but of course there are still a few ppl who offered me their help voluntarily - my mum, my nbs SP, and my triple bond. i would really want to thank my SP. it is really nice of him to offer me so much help when we only spend 4 hours knowing each other. i couldnt be more grateful.

now that election is over and i failed to achieve wat i have wanted, i will need to plan my life again and organise my life.