IN A DAMN AIRFING BAD MOOD NOW! WTH?!
dunno is i pmsing or she pmsing. Just now still can talk talk abt her work stuff, talk until mood not bad de, atmosphere not bad, den later jiu ki siao liao. Ask me use my comp check her email, den mess up the pile of work that i piled up still say i messy. Den jiu keep nagging and nagging and nagging. say wat i damn messy..even my bro's better than me...以後沒有人要。 yes, throughout my whole life she dunno say how many times le. 我以後沒有人要。 i have been psyched to believe this. ya, why would ppl value me? i had asked this qn and got reply that cos it is me. but ya, it is this me that my mum thinks that 我沒人要。 為什么會有人要我？
也許要我的人不懂的真正的我。
或者是不要我的人覺得自己很了解我。
或許，我也不知道自己到底是怎么樣的一個人。
為什么其他人會要我，會夸獎我，但我的親人卻覺得我沒人要，還是不要我？
也許，親人指的不是最親密的人。
睡在同一間房又何妨？
同住在一個屋檐下又何妨？
同流著一條血脈又何妨？
朝夕相處幾年又何妨？
好想重新活過我的人生。表面成功，但其實活得很失敗。
好想回到小時候。但回到了，一切就會不一樣嗎？若要重新經歷一樣的東西，叫我去死好了。
我知道現在的我不應該這樣想，但還是會懷疑。因為未來是個未知數。