ptm ystd. damn sian. listen until pekcek. but still need to hold up that smile for show and laugh laugh a bit.. cant possibly bang the table and walk away right? why is it that teachers got the faith and trust that u will do well, but ur very own parent dont?
am i really that not trustworthy to yall?
cant i expect some motivations, concerns and comfort from u? for so many years i have been pushing myself up. i am tired. why cant i get some encouragement? i am already putting in more effort. why cant i get some confirmation?
ya i am living in self denial. cos i cant get any confirmation.
watever shit! i got a bloody econ test next tues. if u are just going to leave me there to die, i will prove that i will climb up of that bloody shit myself.
if i cant just let me die.
dun bother abt me. and i wont bother you.