why is it always me? no room for argument? or i should say making my point? 我也知道大中小和小中大沒有分別, but cant i just correct u and tell u wat it shld be? why is it always me? why always pick on me? i know it's my fault for 'arguing back'. i shldnt have done that. but is saying wat i believe to be true forbidden? maybe i shld have just shut up and do watever u want me to do. but that had always been the case.
我真的很失敗。老媽不了解女兒是我的錯。她不知道我嘴巴上雖然那么說，但倒頭來還是會做。她不信任我。連我自己最引以為傲的能力都是廢的。總是這樣，不太親近的人可以毫無顧慮的把心事告訴我,然後變得更親近，但我總得不到較親的人的信人，結果就越來越遙遠。
i know i'm a failure. i failed as being a good daughter. i nvr help my mum. i have heck care attitude towards my parents. i only cared about my studies. i dunno wat i am borned for.
i can see how ugly i am when i cried, how ugly my heart was. i had promised to not cry anymore.
i hate breaking promises. i am damn evil. i am not nice at all. i am wearing a mask all along. i know i am not a nice person. i am greedy, i am selfish. pls now my true colours now.
i dunno how i can survive up till this day. there's nth for me to live for. if not for my pride, i dunno whr i would be. shld i be glad to have this pride within me that brought me this far?